If you have read any of my more profound writings you may realize that some, if not all of your favourite heroes, leaders, gurus, artists, writers, are mostly, no more than someone like myself that really doesn’t know as much as you would like to believe they do. We’d like to believe that these unknowns, heroes are all so much more intelligent, spiritual, profound than they really are. It makes us feel safe. Media includes and excludes which enhances the trance, and that’s what we get, a facade wrapped in awkward realities. It is hard enough to know yourself (who ever that may be?) let alone another mind, but opinions keep on rolling on down the line, that’s the nature of the beast. When all is said and done, ‘we’re on our own’.
To my friends that pretend to gag when they see my Blog pop up, if anything, you may realize that your heroes are nothing more than a more talented, well spoken, articulate version of just another mind wandering thru these streets of deep strange times and corrupted space trying to make sense in their own ways of this odd and beautiful world/universe…..just like me, but you may think you know me and think to yourself, no fucking way does that guy know this shit…and that’s right he probably doesn’t, (not in your terms) or does he?
Dylan is just one of my favourite artists and i am in awe often with his creations…….but he’s just an ordinary guy, at heart, with non-ordinary talents and a lot of hard work..he knows that, i know that….he says it in so many ways, if you listen carefully; just like me, cept i don’t have the fame, the money, the draw of the cards, the turn of the dice, the fate of the late, nights destiny and his talent, but i have mine and that is the way it is, what i got, and at my age, the game is almost thru, here………i’m fine with that, most of the time.
The art and the artist are like two completely separate strangers strangely connected, possibly, as earth and sky. The earth looks up at the sky and wonders when in the hell is it gonna fall and show it’s true colours and the sky gazes down with its wavering winds and wishes it could sleep, just for awhile, hidden along those soft and silent curves upon those mysterious plains. They, the two of them join as a kind-of ‘one’ in collaboration along with the turbulent seas and the rushing streams, silver lakes, clouds of water with a thirst for creation that unites them. The art or the artist, whom to trust, whom to believe……….’trust in no one’, the rain speaks, ‘let deep unspoken faith be the process, be the known, that is your best bet’…..’pick the queen of hearts’.
I want to thank the ones that have had the guts to acknowledge my posts, even when it was not socially acceptable. When many in this world seem to see nothing but black and white, wrong and right, while reality often weaves its truth thru gray, multicoloured endless questions. Thanks to the ones that exposed their shallow scared safe distance, also, tho you may not know who you are.
These are the times for all of us peasants to come together, rich and poor, bright and dull, to unite under the human heart of love, as trite and simple as that may seem, it is the only way. Jealousy and conceit is rusting our souls, this is the time to surrender to the hands of our maker, beyond the terms of the earth, great mystery, god; die to whence you came, we are of one purpose, somehow, someway, written deep within the heart, deep within within. When you listen carefully, honestly, sometimes the silence will speak in light, within the trees, the wind, ‘all creation is connected to one heart and you will know’.
An ancient saying i stumbled upon along the way….’Some of your friends may become your greatest enemies and your enemies may become your friends, so treat them all alike’. That really does say chapters, volumes and with a simple, ‘love all’……as best you can, when you can and if you fall off the horse into the realms of darkness, and as soon as it be known, don’t question a thing, just get back in the saddle and keep riding.
Thanks again friends, enemies, life and this new energy of death ever slipping in so closer and closer; makes me aware that i do really care of what you think about me but not so much as to hide and die in the closets of my mind, as so many tend to do.
My enemies will hate me even more after this, possibly, probably, and my real friends will caress me even tighter….what a strange planet….the earth will grow stronger as the world continues to die…….that’s just the way it is.
down in the calle people are struggling
for a few strips of bread some are begging
some are taking pics and posting smiles
others are eating fancy meals with too much money
words too lazy to walk and thoughts too tired to think
the struggle has worn itself thin as an ancient taboo
faded down streets of glory like an old tattoo
and it’s closing time for us with whom knows who
the rolling hills used to roll right past my door
now they don’t do that anymore
the age of reality has sunk deep
low, down here, where everything is asleep
the heart ate my truth and bit into my soul
if it weren’t for my love i’d be nowhere at all
the masked men and the demons disaster
this world’s on it’s last leg, a last layer of plaster
too bad your mind loves the grooves where you suffer so
that you can’t rise above to step into the dance
and while you hesitate things are fading fast
often in life, you get but one chance
I love you Christine….
I fell in love last night in a dream with Christina. She lived two doors down for a couple of years when i was thirteen or so. I’m not sure if i had ever spoken to her but i noticed her every move when she entered a scene in and around the streets. I knew her brother Terry or maybe they were cousins, yes, she lived upstairs and he down but both shared the front door. Terry played baseball in the water tower field sometimes, i didn’t know him well, never asked about Christine.
I went to Mrs Heinbucks one day, down at the end of Stall Ave, possibly that was the day i went to apologize to her for whom knows what, we, our gang were the rowdy ones in the neighbourhood. We played lacrosse endlessly and the water-tower field was just beyond her back yard. Teddy lived a few houses back towards Duke St, which is where i lived down on the other side of the entrance to the water-tower and its huge field, or so it seemed at the time. Our lacrosse indian rubber or a sponge ball would often bounce into Mrs Heinbucks back yard. Her yard was over grown with shrubs and wild foliage of all kinds. We loved it but difficult to find a lost ball. Looking thru her front window one day, her hall way was strewn with stacks of old newspapers the ceiling high. Some called her a witch. We didn’t even know what a witch was, some scary person, is what we thought. Old decrepit, unusual, ugly, mean, something like that.
Chrisitne came to the door, i was surprised and totally lost control of my voice and my posture went flopping around like a rag doll. What was she doing here? I quickly maintained some composure and asked for Mrs Heinbuck. She hummed and hawed and said “sure, but she’s busy”, and i quickly interrupted and said, “ok, no problem, i’ll return later”…and i might have said, “thanks” and left nervously, awkward…..the beginnings of love?
I remember Christine being the sweetest thing that had grown in and around that neighbourhood and i talked to her, but once in my life, until last night. Last night we were in love, she was cuddled up beside me and i was telling her about the creation of the gelatine slides i produced that the producer of the CBC documentary on myself so much loved. Her father was curious and asked me numerous questions as Christine and i cuddled and laughed, hugged, joked and just loved one another. We were in tune, one love, immersed in a ‘now’ of sweet sweet young and tender romance.
That carried on until i awoke, sixty yeas later. Here in Mexico in some apartment over looking the pre dawn skyline of San Miguel de Allende. I instantly realized, deep, how i terribly miss that feeling of being in love. There is nothing in this life that can compare. Possibly that is why i have gone from one love to the next. When it faded, i faded and things fell apart. Apparently, there is a so called deeper ancient love that caresses the changes as they appear, possibly, but i believe most hang on out of fear, loss, loneliness and the horror, as one gets older, to die without any love at all.
Is it all about love, simple love, innocent love, deep torn worn love, love of every nature and how it weaves itself thru the strands of the mind and time, always ready to invite you in. Is mature love simple love made simple again? Possibly, but i desired that innocent, pure and fresh sweet spirit of new young love.
I loved you Christine, last night and possibly all my life was just waiting for this moment for you to appear. Now you’re gone and I’m back in the vacant neighbourhoods of my mind.
Every one is gone, returned to their ancient lives. Ted, my adopted little brother, Edjew and his pigeons and his beautiful sister Theresa, Helmut, my best friend from four houses down the road on Bismark Ave, Les, down the rail tracks across from the feared Hillers, the big gang of 13 kids up on that high hill over looking the territory. I never got to know them until i was a young man of 15 and entered high school with Mark Hiller in my class and now Joe, his older brother has been in and out of my life ever since. Just talked to him the other day. Reestablished our bond and now the last bend is sucking us around the last views. It won’t be long now.
Possibly Christine felt for me as i did for her, also, way back then. We were so in love last night. A few years later i met someone similar, Carolyn and she took me in for 6 years thru the storms and fantasies of the sixties and our youth. We had a love, as they say, you don’t find every day, karma possibly. The early moments of pure love, there is nothing worth more in this most weary world.
I went on to others, love has always been my deepest love, everything else is secondary, trite really. In my mind, woman are the flowers of paradise, their beauty is incomparable, their love is perfect, magnificent, tender and whole. Us men boys know this and they feel it.
Goodnite Christine, thanks for your love, our love, so close, pure and so long ago, I’m such a silly man.
Images and writing by patrick wey
PS: i don’t know anything for certain, cept, that no one else does neither, probably, fortunately………my heroes died long ago; the way is no way at all, so do what you will, but if you will……..be kind with love, that’s everything.
Instant Revisit of this Article, a critique of sorts…
As in ‘Instant Karma’ a song written and performed by John Lennon, i felt this piece needed to be revisited instantly, even before i publish the original ‘writing’. There have been numerous ideas/concepts swarming around my skull in times of self doubt in the last month since i had began writing this ‘writing’. I felt the need to do an, ‘Instant-Revisit’ to ‘illusions of love and heroes..’
To begin with, i feel at times that this article paints me arrogant, full of shit, manipulative and a number of other negative characteristics that haunts my inner stability, so much so, that i thought that it would be a great exercise to point these issues out and do some in-article self therapy, analysis, transparency, as is often called in our modern times.
I do find it difficult to know whether my writing is any good at all, worth the while for anyone to spend the time to travel along these thoughts as they lay themselves out upon this dessert of nouns and coyotes on the run. I have had some positive encouragement by some of my friends that are respected in various fields from medicine, poetry, out-of-the-box thinkers, writers, artists and house wives to factory workers, a wide variety of our society…….but still, i just don’t know. CBC bought and played past work of mine including a multi-image show of Vern Harper some 25 years ago and did a documentary on myself entitled ‘A Path of His Own’. They highlighted my photography and a song i wrote, a ballad of Vern Harper explaining parts of his life. That is all so long ago, vague, irrelevant it feels. Possibly i am fooling myself again, in ways i can’t comprehend. How much of all this matters? Time passing by, so many roads, so many.
I live in a rather peculiar universe in my head and yes i suppose everyone does. But it is obvious that the majority of people have a variety of relatively common, traditional, trendy sets of heroes floating around their brains, like a carrot dangling in front of a mule, they believe, i don’t. I left all that behind years ago, i trust no one and question everything. It doesn’t take a genius to manoeuvre thru that suburb. And there are those in their high-rise cells that are terrified of flying any higher, sinking too low, so they attempt almost nothing out of the ordinary, follow the flow, live and criticize every attempt to release themselves and free themselves from their shackles and then curse them that are free.
That is the way i see it sometimes, often. It is difficult to understand realities and not fall into lecturing and yet teach somehow, someway. This has the danger of appearing arrogant and more so than that, being arrogant, preaching and not walking ones talk. That is the battle. I weave in and out of these terrains.
I am not always strong, i am not always weak. I fear the unknown, i throw myself into it. I know much about uncertainty which is a mystery to me. I attempt to be honest and end foolish at times. I am not a liar, though i have lied, unintentionally. I mean well and have strived to be a good man and many times have failed miserably.
Possibly these writings may have some meaning and can help another wanderer along his or her path. This life is extremely short when you round the last bends. It is important to make amends with others but more so to yourself. This self that is constantly on the move, rearranging itself, deteriorating, re-inventing its nature.
It is a mystery that i can feel love somehow everywhere for everyone and everything. Thoughts of jealousy, envy, conceit, deceit do swim in and out of my perception but ultimately love, caring, honesty, kindness is the truth that lifts my heart aware.
So with that i say i write and create artistic images purely for the world thru myself. May you get something from my endeavours. All my friends, enemies, acquaintances, for in the end, we all fall thru darkness into the light. That is what i tend to think……at the moment.
Covid Control Observations:
Since back in BC i realize more and more that this plan moving forward will need numerous individuals willing to control others and expose their behaviour for social credit scores. This procedure was much more dominant through-out the chain stores in Mexico as it has been here since day one. The giant Corporations are the first to implement new procedures for their One Governing agendas and smaller suffering stores follow suit and or die. An army of bullies world wide to execute the mandates. These mental types come from all classes; and social media to social credit is the path. We the passive will ultimately win thru eons of suffering. Hello new world coming, i’ll be out in the garden for now, for awhile, if you’re looking for me.
& ps: to klaus, billy, all the wives behind successful men, all your coconspirators, cronies……you’re all going down, there are many more of us than you may think, waking, seeing, preparing.
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Helmut here. Thank you for sharing your thoughts. Many wonderful memories.
Thanks Mike….i just added a plugin to send a notice to people whom comment…..let me know it you get an email to let you know i replied please…
Hey Pat, it’s a small wonder-filled world .. Re ‘the feared Hillers, the big gang of 13 kids up on that high hill overlooking the territory’ — they are my second-cousins (our fathers were first-cousins:) Also .. concerning ‘Goodnite Christine’ I offer you Goodnight Irene.. https://youtu.be/MSDyiUBrUSk
Hymm, cousins eh, interesting……Irene is another poem, sometime down the road….thanks for the thoughts.
Pat, I always read your blog, it’s always not what I was thinking about, which is a relief for me. There are nuggets of those cosmic insights that I look forward to. I’m with Pat F, wondering about the enemies (?) but something I know for sure is that our relationship is one of my longest and most treasured ☮️
Yes, we go back a long way. One of my longest cherished friends. It seems the word enemy has taken a few by surprise. I explain in my comment to Pat F. Thinking back i realize Vern Harper my native Elder friend used that word more frequently and i developed a clearer understanding of its implications. In the last few years the covid differences among friends often brought enemy like qualities into the friendliness of family and friends. That has persisted in areas that has caused some real mental damage to our society. It has affected me personally and have conversed with numerous people that have had very negative experiences with so called friends and family especially in the last few years concerning covid differences. This would involve a much longer discussion. I just write and a blog is the outcome as of late….nothing personal towards you or anyone else in my use of the word enemy, tho there are a few that possibly fit into that loose mould of a word that had or do travel or hang out in my social media world….thanks Annie for always being there when i needed a close connection….cheers
Hey Patrick, as my mind surfs over ‘my reality’ and I do my rounds on the internet, when I come across a blog from P.Wey, I don’t open it up immediately as I usually do for the posts that I do open to get a taste of the ‘reality of the moment….what in the world is going on now….can it it get any worse?….maybe there has been some hopeful change in this FUBAR world….what in the world are THEY doing now….etc etc’: No, the P.Wey blog I wait till my mind is peaceful, usually first thing in the morning as the suns oblique rays bring light to an infinitely beautiful world that we somehow incredibly pass by in the goings on of our life….and read P.Wey’s words that somehow marinate my soul also and bring about a wistful longing for something, sometimes just out of reach and sometimes that I find in the palm of my hand, don’t matter, it’s a something that matters. This morning it brings to mind the feeling of that Rumi poem that has inhabited my mind about lovers meeting in a pomegranate garden and if the lover comes it doesn’t matter and if he/she doesn’t come it doesn’t matter….something like that….but that it generates the same feeling as Rumi in my mind….well that is saying something….what? I’m not exactly sure of, but that doesn’t matter….which is to say ‘thanks’ for another one….Francesco
Thanks for your constant comments. I also look forward to hearing what you have to say. It is rewarding to know that my efforts are appreciated and possibly that they even reflect within the inner workings of a few souls floating freely in my vortical like circle. We say a lot of nothing but it propels us somewhere up ahead along some endless trail and that’s life living its life….cheers
Pat. You surely covered a lot of ground on this one. As l flowed through your writing(which has that unmistakable mysticism weaving through it) one thing I’m confused by is your mention of enemies. Is that a perception that those that have misunderstood you or disagreed with your life wisdoms are enemies? Or are they such because you have misunderstood them and their wisdoms? Or is it something more that’s perhaps no one’s business. I just have never considered you with enemies. Your writing is inspiring, insightful, spiritual, impossible, out there, in there, awkward, maddening, lifting, lowering and brilliant;Just like most of the conversations I’ve had with you. If you ever alter any of those things l will be truly disappointed. ☮️
Thanks Pat F. for your comments. Good point. Sometimes, or maybe often we use terms without really understanding them (which i don’t believe that understanding is completely possible with thought). I suppose an enemy is a being that would do you harm (physically, mentally, spiritually) for whatever reasons. A wild animal, a human with jealousy, conceit, wishing, cursing, bad intentions on another, imbedded in a form of psychosis, insanity, drastic mental differences. At any rate differences that can be lethal, hurtful, alarming. The opposite of a friend can be loosely called an enemy. What is a friend? There are many descriptions and sometimes they are interchangeable, enemies and friends…treat them all the same, respect, kindness, love, you know, all that good difficult stuff..lol
Sometimes my friends show enemy like qualities and some times my enemies show friend like qualities, so yea, best to attempt to treat all souls alike, even black and white is not simply black and white, that brigs to mind the taoist symbol of yin and yang, a llittle yin in yang, a little yang in yin………sometimes the proportions get out of whack. Thanks friend, as far as i know…lol
DearPatrick my deep intergalactic galactic thinking loving man friend.
This blog above all all others for me anyway held and even now holds up a mirror for me and I bet many others, men and women of our lives from day one and even now more so with the world as it is.
As I read it, brought up so many memories of my childhood, loves and all of the women up to now who have been waiting at the crossroads to show me the way to go next.
It also brought out not surprisingly the saying of a man I respected so much who said so many times learn to Tiptoe Through the sleeping elephants of the world (and i would add (through the tulips as well) taking it all as it comes without judgment and allow love, so much More Love to guide you further down your journey.
And so it is!!??
Just know Patrick, that we are all of us surrounded with an entourage of unseen ancestors and Being of Light who, if we let them, guide us all the way!
I love you Patrick; your friendship is precious to me.
As always, with love and Light….❤🌟💜🙏🥰
Thanks Leo for the thoughtful response. I would continue to write regardless of feedback but it certainly enhances the inspiriting terrain that envelopes my creative juices….thank you kindly.